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God is wrong (TWO)
09:49, 28/12/2009
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Who says the man can't lure women, who says the woman can't lure men!"Your expression in one's eyes is very beautiful, one kind want to say beauty that returns Sue. You are very beautiful! "
I am mute and right. Have not heard for a long time this kind is about words beautiful. I was beautiful too originally. I can't help weeping buckets.
The scholar dies for his bosom friend, the woman has already person held for being happy. " clever " Woman to appreciate her without being known how to be escape man. No matter great the south lover of me, or I great lover of south. This has been already no longer important. The more important thing is we can get each other happily. Just like the dried firewood and raging fire, wave and desert.
It is still a boy in the south to be great. It is seasoned that no matter he is in bed OK. He is still a vigorous boy. He is with wilful choice life. I am not a girl. I am a woman, a woman getting married. So I can only let life choose me.
"If you would like to give up him, give up his timid China. I am sure to marry you. " Great the south gather around I spoil weak body, light ears to bite me mumble.
I have smiled. The innocent automatic public notice is candid to the limit to smile in the south greatly. But except I move only a bit one waveringly. My very calm telling is great in the south. I will not leave Lin Feng's. Enjoying a high position and living in ease and comfort and already letting me dueing to him for many years. I prefer, struggle until height very cold, too unwilling to get back to free to lose suffering when drift.
Disappointed that it is skimmed over in the eyes of the south that great, skim over the pain. "Then do you love me? "
"Do you think so? " I seal the mouth of the south greatly with the lip. But a baffled one unreal to blow rain high figure, have him in the brain - -Lin Feng.
6: Time of Lin Feng's need one week on business. I have for long holidays of one week to the nurse tooed.
One's own stomach is a cup of milk that I give breakfast, two eggs. The milk is that the supermarket buys naturally, but the egg was asked someone to send from the countryside far away up by the Mummy. The Mummies have been all thinking highly of me very much all the time, have always hoped I can fly into the branches of tall trees and act as the phoenix. I have not shouldered her to look finally either. Lin Feng is the branches of tall trees in her eyes.
I seldom go back to countryside. Certainly not merely because innate fear travel is tired, getting along with mother is always unavoidable to dispute. It is remoter that the difference of age, education and environment makes me compare with segregation of mother's personality in my imagination. But mother's love to me will never be indifferent because of this kind of segregation. That is absolutely true, release from in the abyss of the mind. Like sending the egg, phone to wake me up just in order to tell me at midnight, she made a nightmare, dream I fall into the withered well, want me to be careful. It dressed all kinds of words inquiring after one's well-being such as the clothes,etc. getting coldly more, 20 had been never disconnected in the past few years.
Mother loves me. And it is the only repayment that I give mother the greatest repayment, it is what she wants too - -Money. I thank Lin Feng very much in this. This lets me have a kind of fulfillment in front of mother. Even if I make mother angry because of carelessness once in a while, guilty that the money will buy out me to mother.
It was the night on days two of Lin Feng on business that I missed mother very much suddenly. One wander up and down street at the beginning such as light, heart if the city to have lover, for a long time in order to miss and draw lonelily freely. The place waning of the lights, except that Lin Feng gives to my that home. Other homes of mine have that remote small mountain village only. Then, I take the car of that night to the homeland.
7: It was that afternoon when Lin Feng came back that I returned to the city. Should take the plane at nine o'clock in the evening in accordance with his journey budget, and when I open the door, Lin Feng is unexpected to the limit to sit in the sitting room. My appearance lets Lin Feng rise the red face to turn into ashen because of alcohol.
The smog all over the sky and seven harsh and unreasonable hard wine bottles of eight are the scenery in the sitting room.
Everything is developed very naturally. And then Lin Feng's roaring raving and interrogation, have my repeated explanation unable.
"Where did you go these days? Take advantage of my going on business to look for that discredited boy? Is it? Have you been staying with him all the time? "
The quarrel of Lin Feng and I rises to ten grades from original five grades. I thought it is impossible for us to live house together another; I thought Lin Feng was sure to propose divorcing. But he does not have, I do not have.
The sun east rises the sunset every day. At night when Lin Feng came back at night, I will get rid of the door and the arms thrown into greatly the south appear.
8: I can't believe the life will be so fragile.
It is likewise at the night that I receive Lin Feng's sad news. I lie in great chest of south listening to his heartbeat. While getting to in the hospital, Lin Feng is a interest of cover cover. I hold hand of Lin Feng, tear we to only pouring out each other.
The next day, Lin Feng left. The eternal one has left. Diagnose the result is: Alcoholism suffocate and lose.
When I put Lin Feng's relic in order, find a note in the pocket of the clothes worn from him on the same day: Gentle, I am wrong. Let me stop the war, begin again!
God is wrong
09:36, 28/12/2009
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God is wrong 1: I lie in the sofa in the sitting room having three hours and 15 staring at the ceiling. Room very quiet, have sound and clucked clucked of stomach of wall clock at the wall only.
The breakfast,lunch and dinner was not eaten, water is the only origin of maintaining the life.
Having slept for 24 hours, dusk ground. A blank in the head. Flood passage of story a certain find time, catch, right away flash yet in me once in a while. Paper discarded use the all over whole sitting room. Ten day, pass by 10 day while being whole. I have not written out a manuscript, precisely not write out a sentence of intact words. Have write, has tear, has lost. It is very white that the achievement bending over one's desk in ten days paves the sitting room.
I begin to suspect if the rain is high. He say I full strange thought Yu of brain think it is one that does talent created. Indeed, my illusion love, marriage, child, car, villa, wait a moment in timid China of all materials, dare, it has fantasies of to be can until article chirp people rain high never. The hobby that the rain is high is created and come from the seeing and hearing of congenital blood vessels heredity and the day after tomorrow. And I come from rain high a word only. The reason why I am unable to write out anything, so I needn't feel ashamed in the face of the rain high.
2: Lin Feng's sound of one's walking from stair mouth to sitting room, and then reach the bedroom. He has come back. Already mid-night. Lin Feng comes back to be always after mid-night or mid-night. The brilliant rays of the dazzling fluorescent lamp shine my eyes, I contract and step forward to the quilt instinctively.
The same quietness dies in the room, except that Lin Feng knows the sound of undressing that asks for is the heavy breath sound that I am constrained. I neither dare to move, nor want to move.
"Tell me, what have I really done wrong? " Lin Feng lay at my side, silence can't help roaring again at last for a long time. Saliva bad smell splash face to reach me, insert spilling precise taste of bad exerting one's utmost effort. N time he is drunk.
I have not still spoken, the ones that made him crazy roared; Let he kiss like the blast shower; Let him spread and tear the weak nightdress; The ones that make him crazy are pressed on my body.
Talking about not stopped in Lin Feng's mouth is still that sentence: What have I really done wrong? I have not answered him. Because I know it is unable that any explanation is cruel in watching to me of Lin Feng, all pale.
Lin Feng has slept. Sound of snoring and alcohol flavor have filled the whole room. I have not cried, have not struggled. Because I am his woman, it is his wife. I lie flat, keep a close watch on ceiling equally come back, with him still, seem top realize the soul and paradise to day, differentiation of human world and hell.
Such a day, such a Lin Feng and such a such a day that I facilitate, competing and flashing rightly is five years.
Yes, already five years with Lin Feng for me. The tear has been for a long time in order to make surplusly.
3: Lin Feng is mistaken. If must say he is wrong. That dusk five years ago when he is only wrong. He should high to leave one year such as I but I silly silly walking close to me cannot forget him, in rain. Heard from my nonsense after being drunk high miss to rain sillily and sillily. Say rain high definitely but go agony of me left.
"I need a pair of shoulders, need a family, need the heart of a man relenting it. I will forget him in a man's arms, will forget the rain is high. "
Lin Feng walks close to me at this time. When I woke up, I found I was lying on Lin Feng's spring mattress bed. The spacious room, soft light. Everything is very beautiful! There is warmth like fairy tales. Lin Feng sits in the affectionate staring at me of edge of bed. And promise to me seriously. He has a pair of thick shoulders, has a family without hostess. Another fervid heart. Then I and story of Lin Feng find time, know each other, begin yet in us.
4: The only room where I move into Lin Feng does not need to consider through thinking. Lin Feng can give me everything wanted, except love. The love and bread can not hold concurrently and have. I must choose the latter while having the former. What the two do not choose is not the woman.
The love can come again, the love can be regenerated!
At night, the hollow house and a deserted and lonely woman. The figure that the rain is high is grown in the soul bath in the loneliness slowly. Lin Feng is only one of ten million men not going home in the city. And the rain is high - -
The man's extramarital affair often comes from the desire, come from the passion, come from giving vent to. And the woman unfaithful to her husband often comes from being lonely.
I have never thought oneself is a greedy vulgar woman who admires vanity. But I have never denied my desire to the money. Nobody say that loves the money to raise vanity greedily. The money is not really good things. I learn, anaesthetize oneself when being dissipated and luxurious with money of Lin Feng.
5: It is that I know in the beauty parlour in the south to be great. Because is lonely, because of liking to be beautiful, because is hollow, because of the money. The beauty parlour is that I patronize frequent disappearing and offering as a gift and sending one of the ground. It is exactly the apprentice in that beauty parlour in the south to be great. I let him wash hair each time, say honestly it is the vigor which he had one's body covered with that has attracted me. Have a lot of words that can describe as to him; Young, cool, lively, fashion - -Strong physique; Bronze-colored skin; Leading attire, smiles like the pleasant sunshine are all to woman's greatest enticement.
do not dare to rock
04:55, 25/8/2009
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When being found by gentry's son, mixing mixing and pursuing and attacking me of several streets. I shelter from it the dirtiest rubbish heap of pigeon mountain street, mix jingling and looking for me hearing foul-mouthedly. The gentry presents something small and hard at this time. Gentry son ask, mix, toss about anything, afford to mix hey, hey, gentry son outroar a of " little brats, the rubbish is worth your tossing about while piling too! " Have mixed and run. Gentry something small and hard make a U-turn and spit the cigarette leader, has scolded " hold " ,Saw my song one on the sand and soil not together very clean. My heads mixed thumping just now, had nearly gone into a coma. I see gentry's son moving towards me, has stretched out one's hand in in a trance. While opening eyes, I have been already in gentry's son's home. Troublesome, do not dare to rock. I know I am in bed, under the body is a bedspread of the cotton texture of silk, there are ceiling lamps on the ceiling, there are wall clocks on the wall. I continue a health of song, the earthquake slightly. Have make out some sounds rubing with the bedspread, has alarmed the son of gentry bending over on the desk, does he say, " the leaf of the bamboo, have you woken up? "
This name is so familiar to the ear. I remember it is a name of that hotel where I run out, I continue thinking along this main threads, why would gentry's son call me like this? He does not know I am who calls me like this directly, then he must have been to that hotel, perhaps often go, just I pay no attention to him, and he must have paid attention to me.
I like very much " The leaf of the bamboo " This name, it uses on my body and matches very much. But now is so called by gentry's son,Botani| Squalene| Skin Care| Point of Sale| Laptop Batteries I remember on the day of that hotel. It is very painful that this remembers. I have been avoiding all the time but can not avoid. This step field is because I have run out of because I fall " The bamboo leaf hotel " ,And I must run out. It roam about than staying been at pigeon for mountain street in " The bamboo leaf hotel " Li are a little free slightly.
"Have you woken up? I have wiped the body for you, you are clean. Some medicines on having a wound me at hair to give, it is over. I do not know what you like eating, there are tins here, have vegetables fruit keeping fresh and so on, put the bed for you, it is eaten that you are hungry. "
Gentry's son is smiling at me. His teeth are so white, the smile is the same as good like Bodhisattva.
A lot of staff
04:52, 6/7/2009
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A lot of grateful old friends of my give me a letter incoming telegram tirelessly, supervise the writing that I accelerate this book to be published, these, are encouraging me to finish and put out this book as soon as possible. This book gets a lot of people's help, show sincere gratitudes here together in the course of writing.
Xi'an come LiZhuo Wang of high school at the U.S.A. from China, help me put some manuscript of book this in order, successively read most first drafts of this book carefully twice, and proposed his view, let me find out about interest and attention of the Chinese students of the background like him. He was admitted to Texas A&M university of U.S.A. and majored in the electronic engineering speciality last year. From Shenzhen girl permanent writing help me to make a large number of characters input in initial stage in me in Guo. In university electrical machinery department she of study, practise, finish just will it be summer vacation this year, spend into flag formal letter of appointment of investment bank too, it is a job route that is optimized, very good " shortcut in life " that have taken Embodiment.
I am very much obliged to computer file and other materials that the daughter allowed me to read her, and allow me to quote in this book some compositions, diaries and random notes of different periods of hers finally. I hope my quality of a translation can express her original meaning accurately.
He HaiQin of my university schoolmate, Fujian People's Press has discussed a lot of questions about educating with me over the past several years. Son of her graduate from Fudan University, work, after the a few years, go to U.S.A. to pursue the master degree again. She has deep thinking to the educational idea, her experience enables her to put forward a lot of concrete, beneficial suggestions for me, very helpful to me. I thank her for doing the work that a lot of modifications polish the characters for me very much too.
Thank Writer Publishing Office for Writer Publishing Office's Ms. Jiang Lin for putting forward the extremely valuable suggestion to this book first draft.
Thank you for sojourning in Houston's Dr. Wang Ju and shoot the photo of author used in the front cover for me.
A lot of staff members of the publishing house of normal university of Guangxi have tried very great efforts best for the publication of this book. Two Netbook Wholesale|Netbook manufacturer|Netbook review|Netbook factory||Electronic CigaretteCheap Netbooks|Best Netbook|Buy Cheap Netbook|Red Netbook|White Netbook have edited and paid a lot painstakingly, in order to let this book published in time, the Miss in Hunan of jade of stone works conscientiously day and night, travel to and fro between and shine and arrange the centre and our department of publishing house kept constantly on the runly; When I see the mail that she sent from China at three or four o'clock before dawn, there is emotion that can not say. U.S.A. edit strict young lady Liu for to bind, design, pay a large number of energies book this, design of front cover exchange his draft 9 times, keep improving. She graduate from university less than 4 year, obtain national books design Grand Prix is talent of her and in a conscientious and down-to-earth manner working spirit inevitable to reciprocate, have confirmed an important view that I put forward in this book too: So long as accomplish the work " The best " ,Will be pursued, craved for by the society.
I breathe heavily
04:14, 19/6/2009
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I breathe heavily thick air nod. I will have a rest on the windowsill of the corridor for a moment when the nephew gives me a piggyback and passes the corridor. How he asks, I say freely. I sit on the windowsill lighting cigarettes and taking a few mouthfuls of it, wait for mood to be steady, just go to the ward to visit mother. aŁ¤ mother see I come spirit immediately, busy with, ask many questions, I smile perfunctory a few words. She sees I am depressed, asks me concernedly: "Man Zi, where is not comfortable? " aŁ¤ I swallow the tears and pretend to be joyous, hollow laugh stands up, it is OK to say. Mother sighs and says: "Man Zi, your period of time is given much trouble, it is all mothers who are not good, involve you. " aŁ¤
I advise her not to be cranky, lie and say that saw just now a disabled person wanted the money at the roadside on the road, feel very pitiful. Mother takes it seriously, to saying to the ward mate of the room: "Don't see a sample of my full son, very kindhearted. " aŁ¤
Perhaps mother often speaks my good word in front of the ward mate, the person in the ward is very friendly to me, and praise me for being filial son. I here one to the limit in fact " Sons of people " Obligation,"filial son " Two words are talking form where! aŁ¤ everybody should nourish a heart feeling grateful to mother. If the mother love is the sea, all we have done for mother is a small spray at most. Can never show off regarding as the filial devotion due obligations and responsibility of parents, this kind of conduct of fishing for fame and compliments is extremely mean. There is only great mother love in the world, there is no great filial devotion. The so-called one " Filial son " Just the respect to the life. Face a person giving you a life, it is all things in reason to use any as and reciprocate, usual but. aŁ¤aŁ¤
aŁ¤'s mother looks forward to doing the operation everyday, has already waited impatiently. She asked why I did not do the operation, I would not say Pet Shop, Frontline Tick, Frontline Cat, Flea Medication, Flea Remedies, china wholesale, Printer Parts with a smile then if I just reached the ward that day. We are talking and having nurses to ask me to go to director's office once. Went to the office with the nephew if I want mother to wait. aŁ¤ receive we the fat chief physician, woman doctor to wear glasses. She has modest and amiable attitude, the public praise is good. I just sat down and heard her sigh, then the expression congealed the important place and looked at me. aŁ¤
I know fairly well, have arrived while having a showdown. I want nephew go out, leave the ward not would rather not quite buy bag cigarette, hing. The woman doctor appreciated thoroughly, notified me immediately, were held a consultation by the expert and confirmed mother's canceration has already been spread with great emphasis, the method of the only extension life is the chemotherapy. Finish saying, she is bashful to look at me posing. Though aŁ¤ though I have psychological preparation early, still heart havoc at this moment, one slice of Chaos in the brain. The woman doctor sees me keep silent, ask what plans I have in a low voice. I getting distracted to, answer what if line know, needn't come on to the hospital subconsciously. Woman doctor aŁ¤ feels deeply that regrets to say a few words to comfort me, on the desk passing a list slowly to in front of me, it is my critically ill notice unwilling to see the most as expected. aŁ¤ I squint she at one glance, ask her result to come out early, tell relative. She debates and claims to just diagnose, emphasized it was an expert that held a consultation. I know it is just a righteous and honourable pretext that the so-called expert holds a consultation, can't help smiling, the hospital will turn into the place that hang out a sheep's head but actually sell dog's meat soon in anger. The serious one at once of woman doctor aŁ¤ shows, they have already done the best. I understood at last at this moment: The hospital hangs " Heal the wounded, rescue the dying " Brand,it is in that make " whether it make money by disease " Business,last sentences of lie that is beautiful so-called one medical ethics and atmosphere. Woman doctor aŁ¤ sees that reveals gloomy countenance by me, urges me to make a decision quickly implicitly. She also says mildly and roundaboutly if I do not believe they can apply to transfer from one hospital to another. I listen to her having one's tongue in one's cheek, in practice show the door, then ask whether she has necessity of transferring from one hospital to another. She afford to take great pains to guard a secret, the expression lose even ugly crying. aŁ¤ I hesitate to sign own name at the critically ill notice helplessly for a moment. Woman doctor prevaricate, tell me whether mother the deposit use up soon in hospital at this moment, continue, treat as soon as possible handing in depositing, they kind to arrange for the chemotherapy matters. Nod in my very heavy place. aŁ¤ I get back to ward mother ask me doctor to get me to do son, I say with a smile trouble of mattering, notify me and plan to do chemotherapy. Mother asked me what called chemotherapy, I did not know either what was the chemotherapy at that time, said perfunctorily it was some preparation before operation. Mother listens to doing the operation, seem very glad, she says that boring in the hospital all day, do the operation and leave hospital early early, so as not to endure hardships. Comfort her, has left the hospital laden with anxietily in my good speech. aŁ¤
Man's heart is like the sea Tide of need surfing
occupy alien land
04:05, 2/6/2009
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True, Credit Card Terminal Point of Sale occupy alien land, live as to one now I of remaining half in the earth all the year round far, story these become one yellow of many years' standing old affair already, go from me far already. But run through in these stories, the thread getting off all the way is that frank mother that loved deeply of mine. The great kindness of 4 father is thus clear
Write father, my pen becomes clumsy, always a kind of one that wonder where to start is not knowing which way to go. My more than 70 this year fathers, the erudite, calm humour experienced and knowledgeable of his knowledge, thought are abundant, great talent and bold vision. If liken father to that vast and boundless sea, I am a drop of water in the sea; If liken father to the mountain peak incessantly, I am a broken stone by the foot of the hill; If liken father to that endless blue sky, I am a star in the sky. So, use this pen of mine, to delineate the outline of father's unusual soul, I was just dredged thinly by the strength. Think to want to go, determine to write one from father's bit minor matter on ordinary days.
My father's ancestors begin to horbor in Beijing from the early years of Qing Dynasty. Father can deserve to be called a genuine old Beijinger. The speech and deportment, behavior on ordinary days, can clearly see the characteristic of old Beijingers from father, it is a human nature characteristic of the simple and sincere, persistent and hospitable, modest and tolerant, optimistic and friendly coordination that combine together.
Father seldom leaves Beijing in all one's life. All of his is got on this hometown of the homeland.
Father has been a historical fan since the childhood, especially deeply in love with China's history. He at time of childhood, starts from loving the historical picture book. Study and know, read the history records more eagerly. When being on grade three in junior school, he has already read over the Twenty-Four Histories, thus take and study this resolution on the road of history more firmly. In 1950, father graduated from the high school, in order to act as the students of famous historian Chen Yuan that he worshipped most, admitted to and complemented the department of history of benevolence university. It has a sumptuous library of book source that university life brings the happiest thing to father, all history records there, father has had a look around one by one. He spent all most time and energy in the library and secondhand bookstore during going to school in the university. Soon, under the guidance of great teacher, father is fixed on China's modern history one's own research direction. In 1953, father was called in the revolutionary history teaching and research room of China and acted as a documenter. Father is perfectly contented to this arrangement. The reason is the reference room not merely the collected books are enriched and the materials are various, father has a bibliophagic good environment from this. Father at that time lives in the reference room simply, associate with historical data all day. In 1954, father was sent to the department of philosophy of Peking University and received a training, in short a few years, father read over " Fils of Bach and Germany classical end of philosophy ", " Du forest theory instead ", " whether materialism and experience criticize theory " and more than one hundred history and periodicals and magazines of philosophy.
In 1956, father got back to Beijing Normal University to teach, had already had a history of more than 50 years up until now. During the years of this over half a century, father cultivates in two fields of teaching and research diligently, have paid all of his energies and intelligences.
Father give lessons, rigorous instead of lose humorously forever, and in high spirit carefree and leisurely. His originally dry as dust history, explain it superbly and explaining the profound in simple terms. He always can let his students enter one and guide the neck and open one's Auto Diagnostic| Car Diagnostic| Automotive Diagnostic| bmw gt1 eyes wide, stretch every nerve, bathe in the state of the spring breeze, thus China modern times seed of history, sow, stock each heart of student, have lighted their desire for knowledge and to the ideal pursuit. In addition, he has also guided more than 100's Master degree candidate, doctor, domestic and international visiting scholar. These disciples, many have already succeeded in a special field of study now, the achievement is outstanding in academia and other fields.
Father's first book " development of comrade Li Dazhao's revolutionary thought " was issued in 1957, to nowadays from then on, father's masterpiece emerges in an endless stream. Among them there are " materialist conception of history and historiography of the Communist Party of China party " in the famous treatise, " Communist Party of China's intellectual history ", " outline of Mao Zedong Thought " and the 800,000 words one are " stored quietly as indicated " etc..
Father not only a purpose is taught, made and studied attentively, but also pay close attention to development and changes of the Communist Party of China's historical educational circles very much at the same time. He has held a lot of important posts for this, for example deputy chairman of Party History Association of the Communist Party of China, research association deputy chairman Chinese Li Dazhao, historiography of party of Beijing know president,etc.. Father is busy, perfectly willingly busy.
The experience of China's history is all sorts of tribulation, but father, for about common customs. He has on in his imparting knowledge and educating people, academic research way persevering with the optimistic philosophy of life. He has become a achieving great success, disciple's famous historian in groups finally.
Father's students published a book entitled ' one is quiet such as academy and educational thought research ' in 2003, record and narrate a lot of about father's remarkable contribution of all one's life inside. However, as the daughter, I want to use a kind of extremely relaxed style, tell people father Zhang Jing in a actual life, for instance.
just like the head
04:04, 2/6/2009
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Besides Credit Card Terminal Point of Sale minor matter of the bit, that let me proud is that mother have a pair of dexterous hands, she likes weaving various types of wool jerseys for me. Dip in her wool jersey with fragrant hand and accompany me through the whole journey, become memory that I am most rich in color in the heart. In childhood season, in my ancient city of Kyoto of homeland, people mostly keep out the cold with the fine hair, cotton products. The knitting wool sweater and pants still can be regarded as a kind of very luxurious, very fashionable, very special dress. Therefore, that sweater that mother wove for me personally becomes more precious. That is a pullover sweater woven and become with bright pink and two milky white color fine rule. Mother uses the writings bottom of red thread, is interspersing out beautiful and colourful various types of small flowers above with white thread. Small sweater, seem to be an extremely exquisite work of art, it is quiet to take several single cent vivaciously, include some present sidelight to be ripe in being innocent simple and elegant in being gorgeous. Needle and line all agglutinate mother's abundant imagination and unique aesthetic conceptions of the sweater. Mother uses the line in her hand like this, let my life of childhood become more gorgeous.
The period of going to school, " the Cultural Revolution " Surge forward. The person at that time, not merely become more and more inconceivable in thought, behavior, language, even if become flush in wearing. " the Culture Revolution " China, students' dresses are mostly green jacket of army, blue cloth trousers, looks far into the distance, always a dusky a yellow one that pasted, can not tell boy and girl. During that time, mother can't weave the sweater wounded in action for me. But she has selected a kind of purplish red knitting wool which presents the youthful breath, has knit a sweater next to the skin for me. Though this sweater is monochromatic, there are not any some changes, the texture is unusual and soft and fine and smooth, it is needled through body and light and handy and warm, comfortable and fit. Though I have to cover a military uniform outside the sweater, may emerge those and like having the one that does not have purplish red in collarband. Only a little renewal these, right away enough to make heart of me raise layer of happinesses and illusion. Mother uses the line in her hand like this, how much color, bright and happy is added for I in special times.
In era of reform and opening-up, there is an unprecedented brand-new appearance in the clothing culture of China. In the market, variousth, the fashion fashionable in style is a feast for the eyes, too beautiful to be absorbed all at once. Color and some changes of the sweater are Lin Lin always always even more, innumerable. It has been woven arduously as before that people are unnecessary. But mother still bought threads, wove as before. When I begin the love, mother has woven a light blue sweater innovating in pattern or design personally for me. The characteristic of this sweater is that a curve is soft, have degree flexibly, delineate out a slim young girl just right. It lets me show in that gaudily dressed the boundless universe one kind is out of the common and graceful and pure. Mother uses the line in her hand like this, enable my mood in the love, can bright and clean and cloudless, can also easy.
In mother's life, it is her hobby to weave all the time. She weaves one out and flows and only flutters, varies multifarious world carefully with inches of multi-color cord in her hand. Put on every garment that she wove personally, it is just to get the embrace of one and another warm true feelings, and that one flowing into heart slowly is happy, will turn into a kind of feelings as long as the heaven and earth endure even more.
After myself have become mother, the one that can realize mother love from heart is sincere, unselfish and great. I hold U.S.A. now, gather little already with mother from more.
Around the Spring Festival of 2005, I will have an opportunity to go back to Beijing, lived for a short period of time at parents' home for two months. Mother extremely glad, she come, welcome I the daughter that distant place came back with all of her loves. She over 70 years old, is still making nothing of hard ship to take care of my life, let me feel one kind is rare and steady and sure. It is still a solid axle of family that the mountain is transferred to water and transferred to mother; The cloud turns into the wind and changes, mother is still as steady and persistent as earth. And what I liked being most is to sit by mother, listen to her talk in her childhood silently, those remote, past events of another eras, always have a kind of magical temptation to me.
The memory of mother's history in her one's own family, is fragmentary passage type mostly. It is luxurious and lively to annual that one at the festivalElectronic Cigarette Business Gift| Hong Kong Gifts and Premium| Promotional Premium | Gifts and Premium| Advertising Premium| Premium Gifts| Hong Kong Gifts & Premium| Gift and Premium Fair| Corporate Premium| Executive Gift that she says, tell the courtesy of getting married in old times, report about all her gorgeous pearls being seen, explain the origin of the cheongsam, tell the novelty of the flag shoes, explain the coronet of the woman of Manchu.
I know from her story cheongsams are the gown that the Manchus wore initially, clothing robe band, the more, the better. Until 1911, though Qing Dynasty has ruled and has been over for a long time, the cheongsam did not disappear because of this, though renovate all the way, get to today. The shoes which the bannerman wore, also call " one inch of sub shoes " ,The vamp is a coloured embroidery, it looks that there is not any special character. But the sole, wooden high root, inlay it in the centre of sole, it is generally 3 to 6 centimetres high, similar to flowerpot, let " flower try to get to the heart of a matter shoes " also . And the hairdo of married women of Manchu, mostly coil up into a clipper of the satisfactory type, so also call " the satisfactory head " ,Have looked from afar and carried a decorated archway just like the head.
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